Time of the first time _ love in panic

Time of the first time, _ love in panic

He and I are classmates of high school, we just begin the love that the Chinese wild goose conveys feelings during sophomore period. Eight years ago, it was not quickly that the country posted the speed, he was in the remote northern part of the country, I am in a city of Su Bei's, we communicate at the speed of one for every week, pile
The emotion between each other is being accumulated. Meet each other, it can only be summer vacation and winter vacation.Honest to say how old 's men and women it will be 20, it has those kind of impulse to be the lie when together, just I have been insisting on refusing his each very intimate expression all the time. This does not indicate I do not want, first, mother's family education lets me not dare hurriedly, two just thinks time is less than. Talk about mother, among numerous mother, I think she can be regarded as first mother Yan. To our contacts, mother has held and has not recommended the attitude not objected to all the time, certainly she must not agree with antenuptial sexual behavior. And I, spend mother with work money come to make hard, economic reliance unable to responsible for one's own behavior in decision, have right do any, want thing that make just.Because of reason these, when we each time together, no matter what kind of impulse he has, I insist on the last line of defence. Once ones that are worth mentioning are big three that years winter vacation herein, we lived in his father's unit of provincial capital for one night. That day, he and his father lived in a room, I lived in the librarian's room alone. In winter in the North, because the reason of the heating is very warm in the room, I have not taken off long woolen underwear and autumn clothing (this has been my consistent method when being with him) . At midnight, he came, in fact I want to stay with him very much too, I can open when certainly he knocks at the door. We lie in bed in the clothes, just embrace together tightly. After a while, he advises me to take off the clothes, says I fall asleep like this will be uncomfortable, I have not spoken to him. Perhaps I was not still very ripe at that time, I did not feel either that come from the change that he has, but he wanted me to take off the clothes ceaselessly later, promised not to touch me. I stubborn personality play certain positive role, he have, go back he I did not take off a garment either at the room of father until soon bright it.On big four that years May Day, my work was almost fixed too, more unused. Because he graduates to leave that city, I liking travel decide to catch a last bus, go there to have a look. When the train takes me to him vacillating and staggering, the intuition is told me, would certainly like something to happen between us. The hostel where I live in their school, it is the girl friend of a brothers of his to be in the same room. We two pairs humour the space that stay alone for the other side tacitly each other, they are just in the room that we go out, we come back they go out again. Though the original idea that I go just travels, and does not think more, the thing in the accident has happened. However, I can affirm one point: I have already 23, confirm oneself can be responsible for one's own behavior now. Actually we wanted to go out to play that day, my unexpected headache, said before walking that had a rest first, this has met accident once having a rest. Because of the previous day it rained just now, the room was a little cold, I covered on the quilt and lay in bed, he sits by the bed. We were also speaking, did not know later when to stop at the very beginning. We are just looking at the other side there sillily and distractedly and distractedly, so quiet as to only hear the breath sound of the other side in the room; He is stretching hands to my quilt to shake hands with me tightly, his mood of transmission of temperature of the palm. Then, I say: "Please come up too. " In this way, we lie there in the thick clothes, are embracing, silence. I wonder when his hands are stretched to my clothes, separate the underwear to stroke on my back slowly, breathe heavily, the health is dry gradually too to get hot. Unless until I hold tightly movement of him, kiss he I beginning,hand too from behind forward and then laying, fade away my autumn trousers, stretch to that concealed position. Perhaps it is the coming of the feeling, I have not refused, just hold him tightly, respond his kiss, his enthusiasm. Let to be that these have encouraged him, he asks me shily: "All right? " I have not answered, am just closing eyes and enjoying that kind of feeling. Silence means consenting tacitly to, he stands up and presses on me, is trying to find out on my body, sound out. With kiss of him, I oneself think a burst of health generate heat and feel like jelly, want to be pigeonholed by him too, rub, melt in his arms. Body one's own at that time, can't help, send out the intersection of I and oneself, know what 's voice it is either in the mouth. He stands up and stands by the bed, separates my leg, attempt to enter. My nervous holding one's breath in fear, because see, the girl is very painful for the first time from book. He might feel, publish I getting tense, ask me to be afraid, I say afraid of, ache. It is very careful that he will talk about me slowly. The funny one is, did not succeed after trying several times, because all of us are closing eyes! Several find breach, he like angry, between instant, he entered my health violently, not finding time to sample that kind and make the sense joyful yet, a kind of shouting pain has been attacked over. My pain is passed to him, what a movement he does not have, in addition tense, he shoots a few minutes later, I stand up the toilet in a hurry too. Find the bloodstain on the pants while standing up in the toilet, is frightened that he thinks it expresses that disagrees that I look smug or conceited firmly while making.Remember now, it has been very successful the first time that even cannot be regarded as that time, but absolutely unforgettable and aroused in interest. That time, I become one's own lover's woman from a girl, although there is bitterness that does not also lack sweetly, dull can also be called soul-stirringly. Nowadays, he and I who walk close to 30 will set foot on the palace of the marriage soon, each middle integration is very harmonious and beautiful, but is born firmly in mind by me so for the first time.The girl, please cherish it the first time of you carefully, let it become a beautiful chapter that remembered of your, let it accompany you for all one's life happily.


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